Miserableness has creeped its way in...

So after I had this whole thing planned on getting back on track and getting back to the weight I was before I had my daughter...it didnt happen.  If it wasnt one thing, then it was another.  Between work, school, and feeling as if I am raising our daughter as a single parent (even though I am married and the hubs lives here), I wasnt able to stay on track. 

I know I should not pass blame, but when your significant other doesnt help, not even to lift one figure with anything, its that much harder to do things.  I mean is that hard to ask that the house atleast is left the same way it was when I left...not 10 times worst.  AS IT WAS TODAY!!  I refuse to deal with it..I told him tonight finally that HE can pick up the house because it was picked up before I left and its not my fault he let our 2 year old run rampid all over the house...and when I say all over...I mean ALL OVER (bathroom, her bedroom, OUR bedroom, livingroom and kitchen....Just thinkin about cleaning on my mini-vacation is hurting my head and literally making me sick....not to mention on top of cleaning the house, doing all of our laundry (since he obviously doesnt know how to do it) and my homework (which I am going to be late on because YEAH I DONT CARE right now).

I know this is just a rambling vent, and I am sorry, but I had to get it out.. I have been soooo stressed lately that I dont want it to spill onto my daughter because she is the world to me.  Im soo tired!! 

Well on a cool note, Im getting my deep freezer chest tomorrow and that means I can finally stock up on meats and things....so there might be a future of weight loss after all....well here is to figures crossed!!

Today is the day...

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.  Yesterday I found a picture of before I was pregnant with my daughter.  I am going to be using this

This makes me know that anything is possible, especially since I have already done it once...I know it is possible.  I am going to be weighing in today and then getting measurements done and taking a couple before pictures.  I am going to weigh myself once a week, and take measurements every 2 weeks :)  And of course take a picture once every 2 weeks.  I hope and pray I can keep this up because I need to do this not only for myself, but for my wonderful family.

You can keep track with me on my adventure if you want, but all I ask is please do not post anything negative.  This is my journey to a better me and I do not need anyone trying to bring me down...I will have enough stress coming from myself.  Like they always say...."If you do not have anything nice to say, DO NOT SAY IT ALL"!!  K thanks. :)

2 more days!!

Then its hello new life for me :)  I am getting a little nervous because I know how hard this is goin to be, with school, work, being a wife and mommy....but I know if I dont do this, none of that will matter.